Things are still going to shit here in NYC. I won’t mire you down in the mud, but in addition to feeling assaulted by the city every day, it’s become clear that I’m not really going to be able to do the job and role I was hired for. Talk about being sold a bill of goods. My only hope is that the company sold, and the new CEO starts on the 19th so everything will likely change- and man I am so thankful for that. But the hard thing is- I’ve already seen the worst of this company and some of the individuals in it.
If I didn’t already have frustrations with insecure middle-aged white men, let’s just say I do now. But the real crux of it is- why did you recruit me? Why did you hire me? If you didn’t want me to change anything? There were about 4-5 clear things that needed help when I got here- okay that’s not even fair to myself….everything is broken- but there were about 4-5 things that needed to be prioritized. I’ve only been here five months and I have brought solutions for all of them, and then some, and a few key people have done everything but lay in my path to make sure I can’t get them taken care of. It’s really mind-blowing. I’ve never felt so duped or even bullied in my life. It’s infuriating to say the least. It feels just unbelievable to move your family across the country- bust your ass for something- see how good it could be and realize that you are actually just set up to fail.
It’s taken a toll on me to be quite honest. But I’m trying to play the long game. I’m trying to be me, do what’s right, and pray that things will sort themselves out. I guess we will see.
So maybe that’s why I haven’t blogged. It’s a shit show and I haven’t really wanted to talk about it- nor do I think anyone would want to hear about it.
But I do have some new pictures from recent trips this summer that I want to share:
We’ve kept busy for sure…and I have a lot of updates to give. But I guess writing that first piece was the barrier to get to anything else. It’s hard to pretend things are all hunky dory when they’re not. But it’s alright. I’m tough. And I know God has me here for a reason. Can’t wait to see what it is.